Friday, October 07, 2005
released at.. [10/07/2005 11:03:00 pm]
Mood: Siao ...
I really dunno wad is happening to me now a days ... i feel ... like so idiot ... so hopeless ... sometime i even wonder if i need counseling ? ... I become very stressful maybe one of the reason is exam is near ... another reason is ... my father ...
I'm always in a very bad term with my dad ... we everytime quarrel ... it really does hurt me a lot when he scold me ... Is not that i did anything wrong but is juz that, he is always siding with my bro ... It was my bro who first make me angry, than i shouted at him ... when my father heard me shouting, he didn't even bother to find out who is right or wrong but juz scold me first ! Even if he know that it was his mistake, he didn't even say a sry to me ...
From the first day when i got to know things, he had never said a sry to me till now ... his pride is too high ... not even his own daughter he will lower down his pride ... so that y i hate ppl whom is so damn ego or wadever ... ( now i dun even know wad craps am i toking about )
Yesterday, when i was eating with my dad, i quarrel with him ... as for the details, wait long long than i will tell u ... I dunno wad the problem with him, he juz slam on the table and said," Wo bu yao chi le! " aka ( i dun wan to eat anymore ) and than walk off ... slamming the front door and disappeared ... But the problem is, I'm not wrong! He was the one who make mistake, i corrected him than he blew his head off ...
When he returned hm, my mum forced me to say "Sry" to him ... i got no choice but to follow wad she say ... he than came in with his head high up as if he won this match ... *pui* ... My sch got the wadever parenting workshop but i didn't let my dad see this later ... y should i let him see ? I dun have much hope liao ... and i dun wish to spoil my last hope to know more about him ... which will give me with great disappointment ...
Life is never fair but u have to accept it ...[ I believe ... I hope ... I wish ... but sometime things will never work out the way u plan ][ i juz wanna to be alone for the time being ... thx ]
Clue signing off [ Freako ]
Saturday, October 01, 2005
released at.. [10/01/2005 11:31:00 pm]
Mood: Depress ...
Sometime i really really wonder, y is the history kept on repeating itself ? y ? is there anything that can stop it ? No ? ... u all think that i very free to stuck my nose in other ppl thing ? I juz dun wan anyone ended up the same fated as me or someone else who had experience it... Haha .. do u feel that i'm such a stupid idoit ppl ? who bother about this ? But i do ... i am ... i am stupid idoit ppl becoz i treat u as my friendz ... if u r not my friendz do u think i will ever care about it?
When u r a friend of mine, if u got any problem plus telling me wad is it than i will try my best to help u .... I promise .... i will try my best ... I swear ...
It is a promise i make for my friendz ... believe it or not is up to u ... For me, friendship is always speical and i do not want to end any friendship becoz of some craps ... This is wad i think only ...
Oh shit! How come i still can't log in tho e-learn science ? damn it! ai yo ... my com cannot log in ... alamak ... help .... i die die liao ... science going to fail ... haiz ......... going to have a big scolding .....
[ My Motto: When time to joke, i joke ... when time to play, i play ... when time to be serious, i will DO that ... ]
Clue signing off ... Freako ...
List of Targets!
R = RECENT
F = FUTURE
L = LIFETIME
[x]B'day celebration with pals (R)
[x]Get a mac-based notebk (R)
[x]Borrow photoshop CS4 (R)
[x]Go to genting with pals (R)
[x]Buy clothing before the start of the school (R)
[x]Get a part-time job again (R)
[x]Get to know more friends, linked to my course (R)
[x]Maybe get into Nyp student union management for cca (R)
[x]Or astronomy club n wadever (R)
[x]Able to proceed to next year (R)
[x]Complete my dipolma (F)
[x]Get a suitable job (F)
[x]Study for degree (F)
[x]Aim to be well-known in this area by the age of 25 (F)
[x]Go to Japan within these few yrs i hope (F)
[x]Visit disneyland in Tokyo n Orlando, Paris maybe (F)
[x]Find my lifelong partner XD (R,F,L,A) lols
[x]Wedding let Lingna or Evelyn plan maybe hahas (F)
[x]More Cash, Money, Bucks, $$$$ (L)
[x]Able to sponsor my family for a trip to any country they choose (L)
[x]Travel around the world (L)
[x]Keep in touch with my friends (L)
[x]Keep in extremely well contact with Evelyn n Lingna (L)
Alltime Targets!
[x]Earn enough $$$ to let my parents lead a comfortable life
[x]Take care of my parents
[x]Buy games or psp for mum
[x]Treat my mum to a durian feast
[x]Buy more presents for my niece
[x]Reduces the worries of my family
[x]thanks those who help me all the way ...
[x]Provide $$$ for my mum to play mahjong
[x]LOVES my MUM n FAMILY full-hearted
*monstez
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