Saturday, August 20, 2005
My Best Kor Kor ....
Time: 5.06pm
Mood: Shock plus a bit down ...
Juz now, me and father had a quarrel while i was eating my lunch at hm ... For the past few yrs, my home had not been peace ... In sch was so stress and tired n wanna to go hm and had a rest ... but even if i'm at hm ... things had not been smooth ... this mth is so chaos for me ... everything was in a mess ... I started going hm late juz becoz i dun wan to face the problem ... I'm still young and i can't really hander my problem well and i'm running away from it ...
Humans r odd, when they dun wan to face the problem they will end up running away from it ... so am i ...
My mum was very angry at my dad for some reason which i cannot say ... Now the main problem is not with my mum and dad but is my sis and dad ... My sis is planning on a wedding next yr ... and some things happen ... I cannot say it out coz is ..... ermx .... ai ya! cannot say la ... I was always helping out my sis and i end up quarreling with my dad for my sister wedding dinner ... My bro was in the bedroom slping all a long when we r quarreling ... but i dunno how he manage to know it ... maybe is too loud liao ... haiz ...
Me and my kor relationship is not very gd coz he is always very the naggy one ... and he always get me into scolding from my father coz my dad always help my kor lor ... but i know my kor is always there for me ... I never know my bro is so gd at handerling things so well and i was tuely amaze by him ... he talk to me explaining to me about how to solve the problem ( my sis wedding ) after my dad left the house to somewhere else when he was so mad ... my Kor is damn pro lor .... talking to him make me feel so inmature lor ...( anyway, i am .. =P ) now than i know wad to do to solve it ... he ask me to talk to my Jie as he is quite busy doing amry service ... and ask me to call him if anything i dunno ... My bro is so damn gd rite ? haha ... He is my best Kor Kor no matter wad happen ... He is once my kor ... forever he is ...
I learn many things for today ... and still Rome is never build in one day so i still got lots to learn from ... he is the best ... in my heart ... maybe ... =P
No matter wad problem happen, u always had to face it ... there is no use running away from it ... running away from it could only make things worst... Action is always louder than words
Clue signing off ...
released at.. [8/20/2005 05:03:00 pm]
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Wah .... My key chain ...
Time: 11.35 pm
Mood: Sad ... haiz ...
Today after my ODAC training, i went to the Lrt with my friends... When we reached there, we happen to see many of our classmate over there chit-chatting or wadever la ... plus our Math teacher, Ms Khoo was at there, and dunno which teacher waiting for Lrt together ... We all were extemely noise but it was fun anyway ... but i juz remember to on my hp and called my mum if she got cooked today ... if she isn't than i'm going to eat outta ...
When i took out of my hp, i notice that one of my fava Key chain was gone! i was so damn shock lor ... the key chain is quite improtant to me and i keep it for more than 2 yrs liao ... and now juz gone like this ... how careless am i ? ... i kept on searching my bag but still left no clue ... the Lrt came and i got no choice but to board it ... and i make my way to Compass point with the others ... In the end, me and "G" went to eat Mac lor ... and we were like joking around and saying about my lastest god-bro ... "SL" ...
I then went home with empty hand coz i couldn't found my key chain ... no choice liao la ... i might go and buy another one lor ... haiz ... i dun really wan to buy coz is meaningless liao ... as the Key chain is a "friendship"thing one lor ... The key Chain look like .... ermx ... a heart shap in blue with white wings beside it ...
Now a days, i'm so bad luck ... dunno y ... plus my parents always quarrel with each other plus my ____ passed away lor .... haiz ... and now my things always get lost ... How come i always so late than update ? get use to liao lor .... anyway, going to slp liao ... going soon ... so cheerio ...
Clue signing off ... ( i really hope to have another key chain back ... haiz ... )
released at.. [8/19/2005 11:32:00 pm]
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I couldn't even see him for the last time ...
Time: 11.50 pm
Mood: Extemely down ...
i dun really know how to phrase it but ... haiz ... i dunno wad to do but write in my blog ... Today around, 3 or 4 pm, my aunt called ... she told me she was looking for my mum while i reply her that my mum was away to her friend hm ... my aunt told me in her bitter voice:" Sing Yun, tell ur mum that ____ had passed away yesterday about 5 pm something ... " I was shocked and my voice had almost drop dead ... i juz got the energy to voice out "unhuh" only ... " Tell ur mum that there won't be a funeral plus ____ had burn into ash ... " my aunt had also asked me to copy down phone number of ____ nephew... i do as she told ... and soon, she hang up the phone ...
The news was too big for me, coz i was playing maple story a moment ago and recieving this news .... i turn around and told my dad who was sitting on the sofa watching tv ... he answer me with his big round eyes with shock and sadness containing in it ... " ur mum juz met ____ on friday only !!! " .... my jaws drop open ... i mean, my mum juz met a person before he passed away ... ( for ur inform, today is sunday ) i called my mum and told her that whole story ... Everyone was shocked of course ...
Mix emotion were rushing in me ... Life is so fragile ... i couldn't even see him for the last time ... that is my regret ... but time cannot turn back ... i dunno wad i'm going to do tml in sch ... 100% no mood one ... but i will not cry ... coz i'm stubbon ... hope that time will pass fast ... may it be smooth for me tml in sch ... but i dun think so ... let this be one of the fairytale for me and us to remember ... may god bless ____ ... forever ____ will be in our heart ... ( for ur inform, i'm a free-thinker okay ... ) how am i going to hander my emotion when tml got test ? help .... hope is a open bk test .... alamak pray hard ...
Life is so fragile ... juz only a blink of eyes ... things will change ... life and death ... is always a part of life .... a life cycle ... remain forever ...
Clue signing off .... haiz .....
released at.. [8/14/2005 11:48:00 pm]
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